I feel so amazing right now. Things are slowly getting perfect again. I love the family I have created in my life. With out these people I don't know if I would have ever made it this far in life. I mean they are the ones who drive me and who keep me breathing. They are the reason I wake up the next morning. The smile on my face. The tears in my eyes from laughing way to hard. The smoke in my lungs. The breath the keeps me going. I love them with all my heart. I don't think I could appreciate these people anymore then I already do. Shanna Newell, Lane Hale, Tommy Wiggins, Chelcee Mencer, Scott Dobson, Tyler Taylor, Chris Roberts, Robbie Ackerman, Bryan Becker, Eric Arntz, Cait Cole, Kathryn Adams, this is my family. With out them I would be nowhere right now. I love these people. 

I couldn't sleep any longer. I had a really weird dream, and just like most dreams lately all my old friends were in it. i think it's my sub-conscience telling me something. But, the dream went like this. i was at this weird place in west lafayette which couldn't have actually been west la but it was in my dream. i was trying to stop the same things from happening again. like i had this dream before and i knew it in my dream and i was determined to make it right. which is kinda what has been going through my mind lately. What if i could go back in time and do it all over again? I think i might be a little too young to be thinking like that but  maybe i am more mature then i or others thought. but, in this dream i was trying to help this girl who had to do all of these terrible things to try and free her brother. i remember withholding some type of little bright orange pill from her. but it was an interesting dream. i really wish someone was up right now, it's weird being in a house/city full of people are feeling super lonely. things have just been so surreal lately i just feel like my life has just been one giant dream lately. all the things that keep happening just don't seem like they could happen in real life. but i guess the best fiction is based on a little truth.

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